My friend's list has been tweaked and my future journal entries will be friends-locked.  If you were shut out, it was with reason, though you are welcome to ask if you like.  What I write here tends to be very personal, and I am not inclined to tolerate those who will spread it amongst the unfriendly.  I do not do this to incite drama, only to prevent it in the future.

That aside, I do encourage new friends to come and join me!  Entries are as likely to be about regular day-to-day life as kink and my life as a slave.  If you would like to be let in, leave a comment here.

I miss Adam.

I graduate today.  *biggest happiest smiles*  I am teh awesome!

My hair is Fabulous today as well. 

I had the best, dirtiest sex last night...omg yay.  :)

I get to have dinner with friends tonight, to celebrate my accomplishment.  I feel loved!

Amanda has today off.  Grocery shopping and graduating are the only things on our to-do list.  Woot! 

Did I mention my hair is fabulous?  I hope it lasts till tonight...



Okay, off to start this wonderful day.  *dances*

Happy Birthday Tiffany!!!!   *smooch*  I hope you received lots of love today, you deserve lots and lots more.  I can't believe I've known you this long, my god we're old.  :D

Also, my hair is redder again.  Woot!

I just noticed something.  I started my last post at 1-something, but didnt finish it till many hours later.  It says that I posted it at 1-something, but it sits between two 5-something posts.  I wonder, does it show up on your lists according to the incorrect posting time, or does it sit between 5-somethings for you too?

This just strikes me as odd, is all.

So, there's this picture meme going around and it's a wonderful reminder why I'm glad I don't have the ability to take pictures of myself and have them easily transferable to the computer.  I am also glad not to be the owner of a webcam.  Why?  Because there are Domly ones in my life who would probly take advantage of such a thing.  Terrifying thought! 

I'll stay behind on the times, thank you.  *smiles*

Many peoples said wonderful and uplifting things in reply to my last post.  This is my thank you for all of your kind thoughts and well-wishes.  *smiles*  You all rock my socks.  And my shoes.  And maybe even my undergarments.

Still terrified, but I know the answer to this is "Think positive, and take steps to change the situation!" so that is what I aspire to do.  One foot in front of the other.

In the meantime, I must shamelessly peddle my wares.  (Sorry guys!)  Anyone want a massage?  Anyone know someone who might?  Do you know anyone who's having a party (and a massage therapist charging a dollar a minute would be way cool to have around!)?  Do you work at an office where all are stressed and your supervisor (or whatever) is interested in improving morale with 15 minute massages to their employees? 

I'm graduating Very soon.  I have one class left, and Graduation is on October 1st.  After I graduate, my price jumps from $40/hr to $50/hr for a full body massage, so take advantage of the lower price while you still can!  I will also offer one and a half hour massages for $75 and may be willing to go two hours for $100.  As of right now, I do house calls, bring my own table and supplies, I just need a good amount of floor space to set up on.  I may begin charging for mileage if gas prices keep going up, but as of yet am not doing so.  I'm too desperate yet to risk charging more for any reason.

Okay, I'm done begging.  Everyone has to start somewhere, right?  :)

i can't begin to tell you how much i miss you this night. It is so lonely in this bed without you. I miss the feeling of your hand on my cheek or tangled in my hair. I miss your delighted laugh, those sparkling and challenging eyes, the million sudden "I love you"s that feel like a miracle every time. ...I just want to be in your arms again.

I had a date with Pesh I've been meaning to post about, but I've been So busy.  I hope to be able to post about it soon, but for now I'll just say I had a great time.  *smiles* 

We've added a degu to our household, adopted from someone who didn't have time for him.  He has yet to be renamed and so is often called Critter. 

There's a purring kitten cleaning himself on my lap. 

I should eat something.

Clinic at 12.  Should leave here at 11.  Yesterday I had a 6 hour clinic shift, and I was busy the whole time.  That was four massages, and then a trip to Garden City, where I did another massage.  This one was for a grade.  I got an A.  *dances*  I'm super excited because I did it on a teacher I respect and she was very impressed.  She also wants to exchange massages with me and says she's looking forward to trying some of the stuff I did on her clients.  Woot!

I got home from all that and passed out for an hour and a half.  I then got up to pick Amanda up from work.  My hands are a bit stiff-feeling, so I'm not really looking forward to working in the clinic today, but I'm sure I'll be fine.  That is, so long as I stop procrastinating.  :)  Maybe I'll get a break today and won't have clients the whole time.

That was much more than I intended to write!  Okay, I should go, for reals.  Have an amazing day!

There's this puppy I've known for as long as I've known Tiffany.  You guys don't hear about her much, because I don't see much of her, but she's a friend from early high school.  One of those people that will always be close and will always be there for me, and I for her, regardless of time or distance or even very different life choices.  She and her mom have been very special to me.  I once asked her mom to adopt me.

Gunnar is their dog.

I met him as a puppy.  He greeted me with absolute joy every time I came over.  He remembered me even after he hadn't seen me in forever.  I love that dog.  He has cancer and internal bleeding.

I'm pretty sure that he's passed away, from what she said in her last post.  Some part of me refuses to say "He's dead."  I don't want him to be gone.  I won't mourn yet.  I can't.  He's...  

I'll think about it later.  Or tomorrow.  I hope they're okay.

Made some significant progress on the messy state of my home today... (which reminds me, I need to put the load in the dryer.)  Got all clean and showered and somewhat prepared for my date with Pesh tonight.  I'm nervous and excited and not thinking about it much.  It's better that way.  *nods*  Last night I exclaimed to Amanda, "I have a date with a Boy!".  She countered with "You have a date with a Dominant."  Eek, I say!

Back to not thinking about it.  *smiles*

Had much needed amazing sex the other day.  I love going down on her.  Love It.  Nothing better than a clit under my tongue. 

Kinda hungry. 

Somehow, this has been a busy day.  *blinks* Where did the time go?

Being pushed to the point of begging makes me feel...owned.  Well anchored and safe.  Or maybe it's just the fact that she responded to my begging and stopped that makes me feel that way.  *giggles*  Who knows?  I do know it was good, and silly me is looking forward to encountering it again for further contemplation...and stuff.  :)

Have a great night!

I is the sick today.  I no feel good.  I need a happy injection.

Also, my hair is definitely more orange than red.  *shrugs*  I can dig it

Party good. 
Perfect cake. 
People good. 
Yum! 

I got several very cute things.  The two B's were the life of the party for a while there.  I just adore them.  Yummy and unexpected encounter with Pesh and Leilia.  It's fun being smooshed between them and watching her react to the things he does.  It's really fun being taken to the bedroom for an impromptu fuck by my Lady.  Several people showed up that I didn't expect, and it was wonderful.  I was humiliated by the group singing of "Happy Birthday", and really, it's a memory I will treasure. 

Thank you to everyone who came and contributed!  I appreciate each and every one of you!

Now, I should go clean up the mess we made  :)

Have I told you about Pesh and Leilia?  I know I've mentioned them to a few of you.  I've been hesitant to write about them, because I didn't want to scare them away or overstep any bounds by using their names...but I have received permission and I feel confident enough now in their mutual desire that I can share freely.  At least mostly.  *smiles*

We met them at a play party.  Wicked or Space...one of the two.  Pesh put Leilia up on a cross, right in front of us, and a crush was born.  Watching the way he was with her, the way she responded to him...a beautiful thing.  Not to mention the fact that they're both really very attractive.  She had a blindfold on, and that brought my focus to her lips.  No kidding, I was talking about them for weeks.

And of course, I barely dreamed they'd have any interest in me.  Sometimes it's good to be wrong.  :)

Long story short, a friendship was formed.  I absolutely adore them.  They're amazing people I feel privileged to know.  They've became my most frequent clients and have been the source of some wonderful referrals.  Now back to the yummy parts.

I went over to their house last night.  There was the usual wonderful dinner with wine and dessert.  (I think I'm actually beginning to Like wine!)  Afterward, we played a little Mario Kart and then I set up for Leilia's massage.  I wish all my clients were like her, she makes appreciative little noises the whole way through!  And then it became obvious that it was almost time for Pesh and I to head to the basement. 


After that, we all cuddled, chatted, and had some de-caff with vanilla rum (Leilia makes this.  If you haven't tried it, you're really missing out!).  We convinced Pesh at nearly four in the morning to call off the next day, which was not very easy even with the prospect of little sleep.  Very responsible, our Pesh is. 

The morning found us at IHop having yummy foods.  I had the meatiest omlette ever!  We laughed about my "meat" craving.  :)  Soon after, it was time for me to leave. 

And that, my friends, is the end of my omg long story.  *big smiles*

I really have started that post.  Really.  And I'll probly even finish it!   It's just that I haven't found myself with the time to do so.  Or something.

You know how sometimes when you have a really good time and you want to write about it...but then suddenly you have a big fight-ish thing with someone and it's like crashing from an unbelievable height...and it's hard to recapture the feeling to write about it?  That's what I'm experiencing.  Everything's fine now...I'm just having trouble feeling those good feelings without feeling the icky too.  And that just isn't the way I wanna feel about it all. 

I want my purely yummy feelings back now please, k, thanks!

On the other hand, maybe this is just me being plagued by the horrors of pms.  Very large possibility.  *nods*

Hmm...

Okay, so I have a lot to say, but I think I need to get permissions from peoples first.  Also, I think Amanda deserves to be the first to hear the pretty details.

And there are some fucking pretty details.  :)

and Yay for money-making, pretty dancing girls, yummy domly-ness, and sex! 

But four hours is not enough sleep for a girl. 
*dies*

Leaving class early is liberating.  Didn't have a good reason, and I don't even care.  Woot!

My re-integration into a more slave-like state of mind is going very well.  Bit by bit, I am reclaimed, and it is wonderful.

We are somewhat perilously broke, but our heads are above water still.  I'm trying to trust that I will start making money soon.  It will happen. 

I like furry things. 

I'm not good at surprises, but I'm getting better!

Someone just asked me, "Think your ass could handle 26 spankings...from each person at your party?"

Oh my... Now that's a thought to dwell on for a bit...